Changes in a day. =( (Thursday, October 30, 2008 / 7:43 PM)
Friends. to best friends. to sisters.
we've been through so many many things. together.
but, things have changed now. =( many many things.
we're not the same anymore.
as you said, i've changed.
so even if that's the case, you dont have to laugh at me.
you can criticise me, can insult me, scold me, slap me, hit me, or anything.
but you CANT laugh at me.
you know, that's the worse part that has happened.
i've never know that you can laugh when someone is there, crying.
yes, indeed, as you say, i've changed i've changed i've changed.
you hated me for who i am.
you wanna let things now be the same as now, and for the future. you want everything like that. not going to the back, nor going front. just the same as now.
yeah, i changed.
but didn't you see yourselves changing as well?
i just dont get it. why cant we all live in peace? stay together as one?
you said i've went to other ppl. that's because they're my best friends as well.
you said i've no unity. if I myself, has none, then wad are we?
since everything has gone to a different stage, we're all avoiding each other now.
i dunno how that happened. it's just in a one-day.
you can afford to do that, i cant.
coz everytime i walked pass you guys, i would automatically feel happy.
feeling like i wanna hug you all.
controlling my feelings like that,today, i just feel really, really, isolated.
everytime i thought of wad happened this very day,
tears just came down.
dont you remember any of the great times we had together?
dont you remember any of our happiest smiles and laughs?
coz i do. i really do.
but if this is the way you wanna let it be,
then let us all let it be.
coz if, to you, it's the best solution,
it perhaps may be the only best solution.
last words, i really really love you guys.
~cynthia~
