i failed. (Wednesday, October 31, 2007 / 5:50 PM)
This post is dedicated to my most treasured friend. She is a nice girl. She is one of my most loved ones. And i'm one of her most loved ones too. But unfortunately, I'm no longer that anymore. I'm just a rubbish to her now. And it's because i have failed to be her friend. I have failed to make her happy and cheer her up. And because of that, she went away for another friend. I asked her why, she said that that friend understands her more. So, when i heard that, i cried. After i cried, i asked myself
Why am i so stupid and foolish?? I can't even make her spend her happy times with me..I'm such a failure. I am so disappointed in myself. I cried for the rest of my night. I keep asking myself Why Why Why Why Why...but i never get the right answer for that question. All my past friends have been doing the same thing over and over again..and the bad thing is, they all went to that friend my friend went to. I just don't get a single thing why are they all doing the same thing..Are they testing my patience?? I guessed not..
I think that they are doing the right thing. To leave me alone. To let me think what i've done wrong. To let my life miserable. To make their lives happier than mine. To enjoy their lives with new friends and start over a new life. To cover their awful pasts to a happy future. And it's all my fault.
To think of the question again, i still haven't found the right one.
I treasured every single one of them with ALL my heart. Sometimes i just wonder..do they treat me the same like how i treated them?? OR are they just using me for a hang out friend? OR they just need someone to go out with. And in the end, the answer is no..they dun..cause if they do, they'll be treating me like how i did.
Talking about that, just makes me cry.
So, this post is just mainly to ask my friend why is she doing this to me..and also, at the same time, im APOLOGISING to her..in case i've done something wrong the her..and IM sure that i've done a lot of mistakes oredi.
With all the same love,
~cynthia~
im tagged!!! first time, i guess!! haha!! (Sunday, October 28, 2007 / 8:35 PM)
LIST OUT THE TOP 5 PRESENTS YOU WISH FOR.
- a bicycle!! XD
- a brand new nokia 7088!!
- my own BenQ laptop!!
- a new car when i grow up lar..MYVI!!
- a new SPECTACLES. XP
Me Got Tagged From My Twin!! XP u shud noe who...hehe...
YOUR 5 IMPRESSIONS OF HIM/HER
Well, she is:
-my one and only Twin!
-my bestie!
-a sweet and nice gal!
-a very cute and pwettie gal!
-one of the people that understands me..a lot..=P
MOST MEMORABLE THINGS HE/SHE HAS DONE FOR YOU
- hmm..she, helped me out whenever im in trouble?? hehekx..
THE MOST MEMORABLE WORDS HE/SHE HAS SAID TO YOU
- let me guess.." hey sister!!" haha..
IF HE/SHE BECOMES YOUR LOVER , YOU WILL
- WAD!! no way..not that far...O.O
IF HE/SHE BECOMES YOUR LOVER , THEY HAVE TO IMPROVE ON WILL BE
- i have no idea coz i noe that it wont happen!!!! >.<
IF HE/SHE BECOME YOUR ENEMY , YOU WILL
- i will be seriously, absolutely and completely moodless and sad...0.o
IF HE/SHE BECOME YOUR ENEMY , THE REASON WILL BE
- she became absent!!! lolz!! swt..
PASS THIS QUIZ TO 1O PEOPLE THAT YOUS WISH TO KNOW HOW THEY FEEL ABOUT YOU
In Reverse Alphabetical Order as Usual (You don't have to do the tag if You've already done it)
1. ((no one in my mind yet))
2. ((no one in my mind yet))
3. ((no one in my mind yet))
4. Tracy
5. Shirley
6. Kimberly
7. Jordan
8. Cindy
9. Claudia
10. Brenda
********Shoot!! i realised i've made JoRdAn into a shemale!!!*********
1. WHO IS NO.7 HAVING RELATIONSHIP WITH ?
- Whoa...erm..i guess he's single..
2. WHO IS NO.9 HAVING RELATIONSHIP WITH ?
- no one yet...=D
3. IF NO.9 nd NO10 ARE TOGETHER , WILL IT BE A GOOD THING ?
- certainly NOT!! they'll be lesbians!!! XP
4. WHAT ABOUT NO1 and NO5 ?
- No.5 will still be the same as no one is in No.1
5. WHAT IS NO3 STUDYING ?
- in my dreams..?
6. WHEN IS THE LAST TIME YOUS CHATT-ED WITH NO6 ?
- i guess on Friday?? hehe..
7. DOES NO4 WORK ?
- No!! she's a student!!! =P
8. DOES NO8 HAVE ANY COUSIN IN HIS/HER OWN SCHOOL ?
- hmm...my time to say sorry, cin!! i have no idea at all!! XD
9. WILL YOU WOO NO8 ?
- no way!! she's my twin!!! hehekz...
10. HOW ABOUT NO5 ?
- no!! she's my twin's sister!! ><
11. DOES NO2 HAVE ANY SIBLINGS ?
- in my dreams.
12. HOW DID YOU GET TO KNOW NO3 AND NO4 ?
- No.3..in my dreams. No.4, at skool lar!!! haha..
13. WHERE DOES NO1 LIVE AT ?
- in my dreams.
14. HOW YOU GET TO KNOW NO.2 ?
- in my dreams.
15. IS NO5 SEXIEST PERSON IN THE WORLD ?
- of coz!!! sexay sexay!!! obviuosly, like duh..serious!!!! ^_____^
whoa~~~~~~!!!! off to bed now!!! **sweating like hell**
**wiping sweats from my head..** phew!!!
Mission Accomplished!! ^_______^'
IM so bored!!!! (Saturday, October 27, 2007 / 1:18 PM)
ahh!! today, is so boring!! i seriously cannot wait till school's over lar..
haihz...oopz!! gtg!!
my tuition's comin up!!
bye byee!! sry ya...=(
i got to face a boring afternoon later....zzz...
haha...exam is nearly over!! (Thursday, October 25, 2007 / 5:31 PM)
whoot!! exam is nearly over...and after that, it would be the happiest time in this year!! hehe..goin out, shoppin!! ^^ and buy some stuffs..like toys..and then hang out with some of the other frens...and then!! of course, we'll enjoy ourselves..
i think that i will faint when i was enjoyin myself..i just couldnt wait for the hols!! hehe...
anyway,
during Hari Raya, my family and i went to Lundu for a viewing of the beach..
my mum found that it would be bored if we only go, so she invited my aunt..=.=
we departed at 10am in the morning.
in the car, was always the not-good time..the adults owez TALK. non-stop talkin. and trust me, they really non-stop. and all they talk about is their past lifes and some about politics..sheesh..haha...so me and my sis sat at the back part of the car..and my sis took pic of me..so, i smile lor...
see i looked horrible..blame the air-con..it blew my hair. =X
an hour later, we finally reached Lundu..praise the Lord..no more talkin..=P
it was really nice there...so many trees..i love nature..it makes me happy and relaxed. and guess wad?? i took pics of them!! hehe...
of course, this was took at a kopitiam..not in the car..or it'll be blurr..
after we reached there, we took a short break at a kopitiam..=D
when we're eating our lunch, i spot a place i dunno how to say in english but in chinese it is called "ma tou". it is a place where boats stop there and have a rest. a small place indeed.
so after all of us ate our lunches, i asked my mum whether i can go to the "ma tou" or not. she allowed me. hee..
my aunt was curious too so she wanted to follow..then followed by my sis and dad..^^
these were the people that owez goes to this place and catch prawns..
and after they caught 'em, they'll sell them, and those are the money that they earn for a living..
and then i saw something floating on the river..i thought it was a rubbish or something, but it turned out to be like this:
ahhaahh!!! it's a COCONUT...C-O-C-O-N-U-T!! a floating coconut on the river!! hahah!! =P
hehe..and then after enjoying the breeze of the natural air, we went to find the beach..but before we reached the beach, we went to somewhere i dunno where but it is hidden in the jungle..the roads are kindaf rocky so the pics arent that well..
hmm..it's somesort of like a hotel..but it's a real small hotel..and the things in there are not very spacious. but to my surprise, they managed to put a swimming pool next to the small lobby!! ahhaa!!
and then we read a sign outside the gate. it says something like: free viewing of hotel for first 15minutes. RM30 after fifteen minutes.
so, my dad says,"let's give it a quick try!"
we quickly jumped out of the car and then went into the small hotel and then we talked to the woman in charge of the counter. but before that, we saw a swimming pool!!
it was raining and yet there're some children swimming in there!! =P
i felt like jumpin inside but i was disturbed by my mum askin me to follow her to the back part or we'll be out of time.
so we went to the back part and we saw some amazing pictures. (unfortunately, i only managed to take two..XD)
the words down there was really meaningful if u actually knows wad it meant...
while we're standing there, admiring the pics, we heard a car horn..it was my dad. he was pointin at his watch..tryin to signal us that the time was nearly over. so we rushed in the car and drove to the beach. it
was a really quick part. heehee!!! =D
after all these rushing, we finally reached the beach. to our big surprise, it looked awful. really awful. it was kindaf dirty and there are no one there.
The beach was empty. i felt bad for it. haihz...but still have to accept the fact. so, we all went back to town with a disappointed face...=( sobx..sobx..
So i guessed that this is all i can say for my triip to Lundu!! it was kindaf fun!! ^____^
My Mirror, My Twin, My Sister, My Friend... (Friday, October 12, 2007 / 8:51 PM)
haha...
life's good these days...
hmm...i have a short "thing" to write to my one and only twin.
i want to say that i'll owez be there for you..
i want to say that i'll owez help u out no matter wad..
i want to say that...i cant afford to loose you..
i want to say that i'll never forget u..
i want to say that i'll never forget the fun times i had with you..
you are my one and only twin..which i really treasure a lot..
you are my one of my best sisters..and i really like you as a sister...
you are my fren, my mirror, my twin, my sister...you are me.
i hope that you can get over with the things that have been bugging u..
and forget about them and live a great and happie life...
ohh and before i forget anything,
i want to say that,
keep your smile on your face every day...
a smile a day keeps the sadness away...
rmrb this phrase!!!
love ya lots, sisters always.
~cynthia~
MoNoKuRoBoO.....BoO..BoO... (Saturday, October 6, 2007 / 12:49 PM)
haha..i've been crazy about Monokuroboo and at the same time, Winnie the Pooh..
hey..they rhymes! =P
anyway, after i blog for yesterday's, my mum brought me out for SHOPPING..this is a girl's favourite word...haha..
so i bought a purse, a headband thingie...and one last thing, a P.J. ><
lalala..then i came home and start doin my project for the ERT one...it's about wood..
me and cindy is one group. so since she did most of the parts, i decided to put my effort in too!! =D
see i told u..i bought these stuffs..and they're all monokuroboo de..
hehe..coz dun have Winnie mar..sobz..^^
and here is me and cindy's project!! nice??? owh..messy messy table..busy doin work..=X
tatatata!! this is a group photo of my fav stuffs and my project!! =P
guess dis is all for now!! needa go study then tuition...=( haihz...
byee!!!
MoNoKuRoBoO...WiNnIe ThE PoOh...^^
dinner at banquet two times in a row!! =D (Friday, October 5, 2007 / 5:24 PM)
haha..i told u that i was goin to the dinner at banquet right??
and to my surprise, my mum told me that we have another dinner which is oso held at banquet!!! ^.^
anyways,
the first dinner is about that my couzzie is goin to Johor Bahru to work...zzz..
let's see wad happened....
while waiting for my cousin they all to come, i took some pics..haha...
the waitress passed it to me..(i have no idea why) so i jz take pic of it lar..^^
my sis says she wants to take pic so i took one lar...
then, my mum saw me busy takin pics, she suggested to ask me to take pic of her, daddy and my sis...=.= like im the photographer!!! >:(
tata!! this is my family..
after that my cousins they all came, and we all started chattin and eatin..
it was nice tho..not bad..
while eatin, we took a pic of us...my dad became the photographer!!!
im the one in black tho..and my cousin that is leavin is next to me!! =P
then i took secret shot...of my aunt and uncle..^^ well, they did realise it, coz of the flash!!! =P
=P
these are my aunt and uncle...lalala.
okay, done with the night..
then to the second night,
it was kindaf fun...lolz!!
let me show u the baby!!! he was with his babysitter so dun mind the lady....=D
MY nephew so cute hor??? har har...
let me show u his mother, which is my another cousin...
the one carryin the baby is my coussie...whereas the one that is standin next to my cousin is her best fren...they have been best frens for like,....since they met at secondary school i think...so nice right?? ^^
then, i took pic of two of them after the dinner...
so then after that, my cousin's fren wanted to "thanked me" by takin pic of me and my another cousin..=.='
so i said yes lar...
then it came out like THIS:
LOOK AT ME...i was not smiling correctly!! ahh!!
and there's one, ONE reason why.
coz that fren of my cousin's keep makin me laugh by makin stupid actions!! ahaha!!
how "sweet" of her...lolz!!!
later, of coz, end of dinner then go home!! and sleep!! blahh! XD
this is all i got for the two dinners...haha...not bad..but to be honest, i kindaf felt sick goin to the banquet now, went there too many times liao...haihz...><
