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This post is dedicated to my most treasured friend. She is a nice girl. She is one of my most loved ones. And i'm one of her most loved ones too. But unfortunately, I'm no longer that anymore. I'm just a rubbish to her now. And it's because i have failed to be her friend. I have failed to make her happy and cheer her up. And because of that, she went away for another friend. I asked her why, she said that that friend understands her more. So, when i heard that, i cried. After i cried, i asked myself Why am i so stupid and foolish?? I can't even make her spend her happy times with me..I'm such a failure. I am so disappointed in myself.

I cried for the rest of my night. I keep asking myself Why Why Why Why Why...but i never get the right answer for that question. All my past friends have been doing the same thing over and over again..and the bad thing is, they all went to that friend my friend went to. I just don't get a single thing why are they all doing the same thing..Are they testing my patience?? I guessed not..

I think that they are doing the right thing. To leave me alone. To let me think what i've done wrong. To let my life miserable. To make their lives happier than mine. To enjoy their lives with new friends and start over a new life. To cover their awful pasts to a happy future. And it's all my fault.

To think of the question again, i still haven't found the right one.

I treasured every single one of them with ALL my heart. Sometimes i just wonder..do they treat me the same like how i treated them?? OR are they just using me for a hang out friend? OR they just need someone to go out with. And in the end, the answer is no..they dun..cause if they do, they'll be treating me like how i did.

Talking about that, just makes me cry.

So, this post is just mainly to ask my friend why is she doing this to me..and also, at the same time, im APOLOGISING to her..in case i've done something wrong the her..and IM sure that i've done a lot of mistakes oredi.

With all the same love,
~cynthia~